Slip. Lapse.. Relapse...

Slip:to slide suddenly or involuntarily; to lose one's foothold, as on a smooth surface
Lapse:an accidental or temporary decline or deviation from an expected or accepted condition or state; a temporary falling or slipping from a previous standard 
Relapse: to fall back into illness after convalescence or apparent recovery.

LOVE

"Words of hope and encouragement come from Christ. Anytime you feel down on yourself, remember that those thoughts are LIES. You are incredible. You are beautiful. You are wonderful, important, wise, and loved. Remember the truth. And listen to it."

The Question that Stopped Me

This was one of the questions that always popped into my head while considering suicide. Of course I don't know the answer, but I like to think that God will have mercy on those who struggle so much that they have the want to end their own lives. My doctor and good friend once told me that God would never stop loving you. He made an analogy that goes along the lines of, "if you come home from school early, and your parents find out, will they stop loving you? No. They will be sad and disappointed, but will never cease to love you. The same goes for your Heavenly Father. He won't stop loving you if you come 'home' early, but he will feel despair and sadness that you felt the need to give up. He wants us to succeed. He will never cease to love us." 

Existence is Worthwhile

So since it is almost Christmas, I wanted to share something that touches me and shares the spirit of Christmas. Each year my family watches the movie, "It's a Wonderful Life", and each year I get something different out of it. In the past having felt the same feelings that George Bailey feels, I cry every time I watch this movie. I remember thinking that I didn't want to exist. The thought of never being born was so appealing to me at that time in my life. With the help of my family and my Heavenly Father I eventually got those thoughts out of my head, but I will never forget what they felt like. When I watch this classic, instead of seeing it as a regular Christmas movie, I see it as a reminder that every individual's life is important. Tonight while watching "It's a Wonderful Life", the quote "Each man's life touches so many other lives, and when he isn't around he leaves an awful hole, doesn't he?" was the one to touch me. If we look back on our lives and imagine them without ourselves ever being born, we will notice the "awful hole" that is mentioned. Everyone matters. We all touch the lives of others. If you haven't see "It's a Wonderful Life", I encourage you to do so and remember that nothing is worth more than one's existence. Oh, and Merry Christmas!

If You Could Change One Thing About Your Body, What Would it Be?

http://youtu.be/f0tEcxLDDd4

Having an Eating Disorder Isn't a Choice

http://m.eonline.com/news/597463/demi-lovato-defends-eating-disorder-sufferers-having-anorexia-or-bulimia-isn-t-a-choice

Meet the Mormon (me).

A little earlier today I was feeling very discouraged. I felt that I didn't matter. That no one wanted to be my friend or talk to me. And that if I disappeared, no one would notice. It's pretty hard coming to a place where there are so many people, but I work and go to school full-time, so I don't get very many chances to actually get to know those people. So I felt lonely. After moping around for a few minutes and complaining to my mom over the phone, my roommate and I decided to go see a movie. Meet the Mormons was one that I had been wanting to see since it first came out, so that seemed like the best option. Walking into the movie, it seemed a little boring. But as the story progressed, it got better and better. By the end of the showing, I was in tears. The spirit was so strong. It improved my night exponentially. Right now my heart is so full and I feel like I need to share my testimony. The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints is the most amazing thing in this world. The gospel is so incredible. I'm so grateful that I have this gospel in my life and that I have the opportunity to share it with others everyday of my life. I cannot express my love for Jesus Christ and what He has done for me. Some people say they don't know where they would be without the gospel in their lives, but I know where I'd be. I'd be dead. I would not be on this earth today. Through prayer and Christ, I was saved. Heavenly Father knows me. I know that He does, and that He loves me and every one of His children. I'm so grateful for the atonement and the power and effects it has had in my life. I love my church. I love my Heavenly Father. And I love His son Jesus Christ. I wouldn't trade my experiences and trials in this life for anything else in the world. I know that He lives, in the holy name of Jesus Christ, amen.